Do you get any assistance ? Do you have family anywhere? I have been in your situation with small children and feel for you. All I could offer is a place to live in Wv until you got on your feet but I'm sure you probably don't want to move. What about your church? Would they help? I understand not wanting to put the children in daycare and wanting to be with them. I hated leaving my children. Hope the best for you
jayellebee You sound like a very intelligent, caring person . I know at this age your emotions are strong and you love this guy. There are many more wonderful guys out there and you have your whole life ahead of you so please think of yourself first. I know you don't want to turn your back on him but is he getting any help for his problems? If your self esteem is suffering and you are having depression then its time to take care of you. If you are brought down then how does that help him? Love does not belittle you for any reason! Breaking up will be hard but think about the children you want to have...do you want them to have to deal with this ? People deal with things in different ways but I know people with bipolar and PTSD and they are not mean and hurtful to others. Even if his problems cause him to hurt you isn't that enough ? You don't deserve to be yelled at and the things broken. Do you know what is next? A little push when he is angry , a slap , then he will cry for hours and tell you how sorry he is and how much he loves you and how he will never do it again. Please if there is anything I could tell you from my experience , don't walk away, RUN! This is the time in your life to prepare for the rest of your life and you do not want someone like this NO Matter how much YOU love him! Its all about how HE treats you and how you feel when around him. Listen to your gut feelings. Do I know what I'm talking about? Yes! I can see now as I sit here with no self esteem and depressed,never able to do anything to please him no matter how hard I tried . I wish I was young again and could do it over. Have you dated much? This is not the only person who will love you , there is someone out there who will love you and treat you nice. There may be other things that cause him to do this like wanting to be in control or narcissist personality . Staying and letting him bring you down does him no good or you. Hope the best for you .
